With the another’s Name
I’ve never told anything and I don’t know how to do it. It probably won’t work out well.
When there is no body, then you see yourself as you were in the life in which your thoughts are now. . . If there were more than one life, then you always think and feel yourself in that. . . the most terrible.
Something must be driving there. . . in that life. . . that day. . .
You want it not to happen. . . you want to go back to a time when everything was good. . . and you can’t. It was the Law that ordered it, to be in that time.
Is it possible to break the Law?
Everyone tries it. I have tried many times. . . and each time you find yourself in a world that is even more terrible and the pain in it is even stronger and you only want one thing – to end everything, to become nothing, not to see, not to know, not to feel anything, to cease to exist at all. . . But it doesn’t work out and everything goes on forever.
I’m not Glow. . . I am the daughter of LETO, I am Life. I’m five years old. . . and I’m an earthling.
I am the real LETO’s daughter, not the girl who was given to my mother instead of me.
And I was given to that one. . . who gave birth to that girl. . . She was called Radiance and I had to call her mother. She is one of the O-Genus as well. . . an earthling as well. . . beautiful. . .
I didn’t call her mother, and This One told me to do everything with him. . . what that girl was doing. . . Radiance’s daughter.
I didn’t do it and then I was given to This One’s children. . . They beat me first, and when I stopped resisting, they fucked me all together. . .
I wanted to spoil myself – to squeeze out an eye or do something else. . . to become corrupted. . . This One heard the thought and they started holding me in the stocks – so that I couldn’t do anything to myself.
I stopped growing – I didn’t want the child to be born from them. . . I wanted to die. . .
When you want to die, there’s nothing These can do to kill that thought, because it’s always the last one.
They said they would burn me on the Day of the Sacrifice, and that was all I could think about now.
This is done slowly – they push you into a copper cap with a copper bottom and light the fire under it. . .
These earthlings are always sacrificed. The O Genus. They want them to curse their genus, their fate. . . to cut off their connection to the Universe – our Mother.
And then. . . by stealing everything from them. . . and this is. . . the last. . .
Radiance heard one of them scream. . . their daughters were being burned at the same time.
She could hear them, but couldn’t figure out which one was screaming. . .
She knew what would happen to anyone who screamed. . . something that worse than death – the Abyss.
I tried not to scream. . . at first. . . I howled with my mouth closed. . . I can take the pain – I’m used to being beaten. . .