The Main Gift
New Year. . .
It used to be a holiday for us, too . . Not like yours, of course . . .
Why cut down a tree to decorate it? . . . Trees are precious . .
This was our last tree and we decorated its branches with ribbons . . .
The last tree. . . Do you understand? .
Another Cycle will end in three hours. . You will give gifts. . . .
Before the New Cycle begins, you have time to tell a story to your future child.
Then it will be too late. . . .
Don’t you think about him? .
And we always think. . . Even if we know that this time he can’t be born. .
Do you want to hear a tale? . . . About the gift? . . . The main one? . . .
About what everyone is waiting for. . . Most. . . And almost no hope.
That’s why they call it – THE GIFT.
Do you remember that cat?
You liked to pat it
when it was sitting on your lap. . .
Just to pat. . . .
And this strange feeling when you look
into her huge pupils. . . .
Do you remember? .
I’m pregnant again. They don’t know yet. I don’t want to live. . . .
Last time, when they took away the kittens to drown them, they said that “…. if I bring it again, they’ll throw me to hell . . . “.
I don’t want to have kittens again, but at night I go out to this place again and wait for something. . . or someone. . .
This red cat always rapes me, . . . just like Those before. . . from another life. . . .
I resisted then . . . not now . . . or almost not. . . . I’m a cat now. . . .
And then there will be kittens. . . Red. . . Everyone.
I’m thinking . . . I don’t know what about . . . .
I think about Nibiru . . . how I was a girl . . . . He called me an Starlet. . .
The one I loved. . .
He’s big. . I’m still young. . . I’ll grow up and I’ll be his wife. . . or someone else. . .
If he wants to . . . . I thought so back then. . . .
And then I was raped and killed by These. .
I don’t know why I’m here . . . On Earth . . . All strangers . . .
I’m in the cat . . . In the cat’s body . . .
That’s not the worst. . . .
Everyone speaks with voice here . . . And thoughts say quite another . .
They say – ” … with respect … Sincerely yours …” And think . . .
So I’m thinking . . If you run across the road in front of the wheels of a car at night or early in the morning, when it is still dark, then the one in the car will not notice and will crush immediately. . .
Immediately is good. . . It’s bad when the blood flows for a long time. . And the kitten in me will immediately as well then. . . . If I’m lucky I will immediately too . . . .
Unlucky. . . My hind legs were run over. . . Well, what else can I say. . . – what a man has below the waist. . . Guts spilled out on the road. . . .
I crawled away. . . And he didn’t stop. . . The one in the car. . .
Only swore. . . ” Whore. . .” – I heard his thoughts. . .
. . . And I’m not a whore at all. . . .
The kitten is also dead. . . Just as I am. . .
I shouldn’t have crawled out of the way . . . I’d rather be completely crushed. . . .
I thought so. . . .
Your cat .
Wait. . . I wanted to say something else . . .
Yes . . . About the gift. . . You think about it . . .
A little? . . . Because it’s not the Main. . .
And the main . . .
Maybe this time you’ll get what you’ve been waiting for so long . . .
At that time, in that life, I was hoping as well. . . Because I was that cat . .