I call her daughter. . . this girl. . . .
She was born after my beloved was raped by the ruler of this place. . .
The girl did not become his daughter – the child is not only from the semen, but also from the thoughts of the parents. . .
The qualities of the semen do not pass into the child if the thoughts do not want to. . . .
The second daughter was born from our love. . . She looks like me – blonde, gray-eyed. . .
I called them “my beauties” . . . They liked it. . . They ran towards me as fast as they could. . . I bent down to them, they were very small back then. . .
I taught my eldest what she could already understand. . . She’s so obedient. . . dark-haired, dark-eyed. . . Her eyes are always sad, and the eyebrows are always apart, it rarely happens. . .
She loved listening to me. . . she remembered everything at once. . . Even what she shouldn’t even understand at her age. . . She was special. . . The Star.
I loved her as if she were my. . . I considered her my own. . . I tried not to remember that her parent. . .
And she called me father. . . I know that she was told that I was not her real father, but she still. . .
It was a good time, even though we were starving. . .
I killed the rapists back then. . . I caught them one by one. . . One after the other. . .
Their children I did not touch back then, but they grew up and started to look for those who killed their fathers.
They gathered the squad together, even though they hated each other. . . they understood that they could not do this in any other way. . .
They came to some village, caught children, tortured them in front of their parents until they were told who killed their fathers. . .
So they went from village to village until someone pointed at me. . . Not because he knew, but because they all quietly hated us, the ones from O.
After all, we are almost gone – women were raped and they had babies with These. . . men were killed. . .
Newborn O boys were killed too. . . as soon as they were born. . .
These gave out where the O boy was born. . .
The girls were taken to the House. . . the House of Death. . .
No one knows what the emperor did with them, what he told them to call himself, but no one ever came back from there. . .
In our village, we were the only ones from O. . .
I couldn’t, I didn’t have time. . . They were alone at home – my beloved and my two daughters. . .
They were taken to the House. . . all three of them.
Usually, women who gave birth were not taken away. . . they did not need them. . . only girls. . . when they grew up a little. . .
The elder one, the Starlet, they had seen before but they didn’t take her. . . She was tall and ungainly a little. . . her breasts never grew. . . the younger one was still very young and thus allowed to grow up. . .
I shouldn’t have gone so far back then. . . I was looking for something to feed them. . . there was nothing near the village for a long time. . .
When I returned, I found out that they had been taken away. . . that my beloved had been tortured – where am I? . . .
They did not achieve anything and dragged away to themselves. . . into the House. . .
I came to them myself. . . They didn’t expect. . .
I wanted them to take the anger out on me. . . I said I killed their fathers. . . Alone.
I succeeded – I was the only one who was killed. . .
They were left alive. . . my loved ones. . . At least I could do that for them.
The fact that O could hear the voices of their dead ancestors, everyone knew. . . for this, probably, they especially hated us. . .
I also wanted to teach my Starlet this. . . I thought I could explain it. . . Although it can’t be explained. . . You just hear when you need to. . . that’s all.
She listened intently and looked straight into my eyes with her dark eyes. . .
I don’t know what she wanted to see. . .
When you die, it’s like falling somewhere. . . a dark abyss and that’s it. . . – that’s what my parents used to say. . .
When you kill, it’s not like that. . .
I was torn apart and every part was trying to help them – my loved ones. . . and it couldn’t, . . . it couldn’t pull itself together to do what it wanted to do. . .
It wanted to exterminate all of These. . . all their Genus. . . until the very end. . .
What I didn’t dare to do in my lifetime.
I guess some part of me was telling my daughter what to do next. . . I don’t know. . .
All I know is that it tried to do it. . .
I know that she was forced to search for me to destroy the still living parts of my soul. . .
I know she refused. . .
I know how she was tortured, how they mocked them, my beloved ones. . .
I gave them my life until there was nothing left. . . only the pain and powerlessness. . .
And also I could hear them. . .
Her body was thrown into a pit of shit, and her severed head was left as a reminder to others to be afraid. . .
The worms had eaten her brain. . . then they began to climb out. . . They’ve pushed them into the still living. . . to be eaten alive. . .
She was the most unusual girl in the world. . . my Star, my clever, my own. . .