I’m Sorry Baby
I think of you and I’m afraid to think beyond the night I left you. . .
It was there. . . on the edge of the cliff. . . down there where the Ocean used to be, but now it’s just rocks.
I wanted you to fall down and crash into them. . .
It will be better than what tomorrow will bring. . .
They want to take you tomorrow I can hear their thoughts.
I don’t want to think about snakes – there are a lot of them on the rock. . . better fall down-this is instant. . .
I can’t push you down myself – it’s impossible. . .
I wanted you to die in me, but you were born. . . I didn’t want to feed my own milk, but I couldn’t say no when you put your hands on my chest and smiled at me. . .
I wanted something else, but I couldn’t. . .
But we can’t wait any longer. . . soon it will be quite light and These will hear my thoughts. . . they’ll hear and use them to find you. . .
I’m leaving. . . I’m leaving to get them away from this place. . .
I don’t want them to see your dead body. . . let them think that I hid you somewhere and you’re alive.
I will be destroyed without knowing where to look for you and they will be afraid. . . always. . . what if you survived so you’ll grow up and come kill them.
This thought will drive them crazy. . . forever.
I’m sorry baby I’m stu. . . pid.